Growing up I never had the pleasure of a "nuclear" family. What exactly is a nuclear family you ask? Well in layman terms it's the perfect family with a white picket fence living happily ever after and the parental unit consist of a mother and a father. Yea . . uh no! For a very long time I held alot of resentment against the wife of my father . . obviously not my mother . .and I blamed her for everything . .including keeping my daddy away. I didn't understand why this happened and I never felt like I was part of "that side" of the family for a very long time as well. I eventually came to terms with things some 30+ years later. Years wasted feeling a certain way about something I didn't even have all the information to even warrant my feelings. Well got over that . .thank God! Crazy thing is I LOVED my damn sisters and had never really had a relationship with any of them on my dad's side. Crazy right??
As we got older we began to communicate and it has been the BEST thing ever. I felt like I had known them all my life in the physical aspect when in reality it was always in my heart that I carried the love for them. It clearly did not take away the feelings I had of not having MY DAD . .in reality OUR DAD. . with me. See I got daddy issues!
See I got daddy issues that I couldn't quite define
The kind that warps your mind
See I got daddy issues that required me to look for love in all the wrong places
The kind that made me wear so many different faces
See I got daddy issues that I didn't even understand
The kind that made me always put myself second to a man
See I got daddy issues that made me want to please
The kind that had me begging and pleading for love on my knees
See I got daddy issues that allowed me to be mistreated and misused
The kind that you don't know about unless you've walked in my shoes
See I got daddy issues that made me believe my body was so dope
The kind that made me wear promiscuity like a cloak
See I got daddy issues searching for that one thing that is missing from my life
The kind that allowed me to become somebody's wife . .not once but twice
See I got daddy issues that made me put up with things I never should have
The kind that make you question why you stayed in the first place, other than to save face
See I got daddy issues that I haven't really gotten over, I would say
The kind that makes me trust no one because they will just leave anyway
See I got daddy issues that required me to be someone I'm not
The kind that will make me cut you off on the spot
See I got daddy issues which allowed me to where my heart on my sleeve
The kind that no one really can conceive
See I got daddy issues that have allowed me to grow into who I am
The kind that helped me to realize that he is just a man
See I got daddy issues that still will make my bottom lip quiver
The kind that makes me wonder if he were there . .would it really be different?
See I got daddy issues that I'm still working through
No matter what happened in the past, I can sincerely say I know that his love is true!
#findyourhappy
With Love,
LR WILSON, Founder
FB: Channeling Tequila
IG: @channelingtequila
Email: channelingtequila@gmail.com
Friday, May 25, 2018
Saturday, May 19, 2018
Purposefully Perfect
Purposefully Perfect yes you are, for every tear you've shed and for every scar. The moments when you thought you were nothing turned out to be the ones that mattered most. You were strong beyond your own beliefs . . you gave life to those things that were beneath.
Purposefully Perfect yes it is you. Stop being so condescending of the things you do. Take pride in all that has come your way. The good, the bad, the indifferent and untrue. Know without a doubt that no one can beat you being you.
Purposefully Perfect when naysayers mock, complain and try to shame you and your name. Don't be mad at them for what they choose. That's their job to hurt and abuse. . it's what haters do. Remember to always thank them for showing their true selves . . .otherwise you wouldn't know anything else.
Purposefully Perfect you have been placed here to do a great work. No one knows the many days of pain and hurt that you went through . .only to birth what is already innate in you. Oxymoron to say the least . . Purposefully Perfect you are a BEAST!
Purposefully Perfect that's what comes to mind every single time. Every time you doubted things wouldn't work out, you somehow made it happen and then began to shout. Singing, dancing and moving as smooth as the ocean's rifts . .yes honey you did that shit!
Purposefully Perfect is all I can say. Not because of repetition, but because that's the BEST WAY to describe such a gift to the world you see . . .Purposefully Perfect is both YOU and ME!
#findyourhappy
With Love,
LR WILSON, Founder
IG: @channelingtequila
FB: Channeling Teuquila
Purposefully Perfect yes it is you. Stop being so condescending of the things you do. Take pride in all that has come your way. The good, the bad, the indifferent and untrue. Know without a doubt that no one can beat you being you.
Purposefully Perfect when naysayers mock, complain and try to shame you and your name. Don't be mad at them for what they choose. That's their job to hurt and abuse. . it's what haters do. Remember to always thank them for showing their true selves . . .otherwise you wouldn't know anything else.
Purposefully Perfect you have been placed here to do a great work. No one knows the many days of pain and hurt that you went through . .only to birth what is already innate in you. Oxymoron to say the least . . Purposefully Perfect you are a BEAST!
Purposefully Perfect that's what comes to mind every single time. Every time you doubted things wouldn't work out, you somehow made it happen and then began to shout. Singing, dancing and moving as smooth as the ocean's rifts . .yes honey you did that shit!
Purposefully Perfect is all I can say. Not because of repetition, but because that's the BEST WAY to describe such a gift to the world you see . . .Purposefully Perfect is both YOU and ME!
#findyourhappy
With Love,
LR WILSON, Founder
IG: @channelingtequila
FB: Channeling Teuquila
Friday, May 11, 2018
The Power of P!
There are so many words that begin with P that literally have power in and/or over our lives. All you readers with as much of a dirty mind as myself . . .go ahead and say what you think P stands for in this blog . . . yep I'm waiting . . .and waiting . . .Soooo yea P is not what you think it stands for . . hahah!
At least not for this post! Down the line it may come into play . .another P word! Yes you all have dirty minds and quite frankly I enjoy an adventerous mind with a plethora of things flowing. Like how I threw yet another P word into the mix!?
With all seriousness the P word I am referring to in this blog is Peace! The Power of P(eace)! Let me tell y'all something . . when you have that "peace that surpasses all understanding" that is mentioned in many religious realms, it ain't nothing like it! Your life literally turns into an arena of POWER, PROGRESSION, PROSPERITY, PROMISE, PURPOSE and most of all PEACEFULNESS! I had not experienced The Power of P until I experienced learning who I am. Once I was on board with all my flaws, quirks, imperfections and ugliness not defined by others . . .I then understood what The Power of P really and truly was.
Funny thing is on today I had my therapist visit and I began to cry explaining to her how excited and how passionate I am about my Channeling Tequila Mind Body Soul #findyourhappy event. (P.S. Tickets are still available. Please see the Event Blog Post). She understood whole-heartedly because she has witnessed my transformation first hand. She said to me . ."I wish I was able to come so that I could attest to what this truly means to you as I have seen you at your very lowest, depressed, broken, vulnerable but still full of faith and pushing forward. They just don't know the whole story like I do." Then she proceeded to say I am like no one she has ever provided therapy to in her 30+ years in the business. Obviously I impact alot of lives on a daily basis with the many hats I wear, but to hear and know that I am so very unique to this professional . . .another play on a P word . . .was so uplifting and important to me. Honey let me tell you . . .she has seen me cry, snot, scream, laugh all in one damn hour session! Not to mention when I tell it . .I tell it ALL!! My shit . .his shit . .they shit . .everybody shit! You know why? Because that's owning your truth and brings that PEACE that surpasses all understanding that I have come to love and adore.
I have nothing to hide anymore and I'm not running FROM anything. I'm running TO all the POWER, PROGRESSION, PROSPERITY, PROMISE, PURPOSE and most of all PEACEFULNESS that has come to me in due season. YES I questioned why all these things happened? Then I remember that everything happens for a PURPOSE in our lives and my things happened to get me to EXACTLY where I am right now at the right time! I am living my BEST LIFE because I can honestly say that my truth is out there. I don't do things for accolades and I don't do things for allies. People will try to paint you to look like they want you to look; however on the flip side of the easel there is always the true picture of who you really are . . .and THAT is what will be known. Not by a few . . .or your "crew" but by many because of your character that shines through continually and at all times. A wise young man said to me just recently . . "I don't define your character by the actions of someone else." That is what's important when things are all said an done! We've all made mistakes and decisions that have impacted our lives in one way or another. The real test is when you can acknowledge and accept your role in those decisions and own your TRUTH . . .not a P word, but hey . . .it's important to know!
The Power Of P! What is your P word?
#findyourhappy
With Love,
LR Wilson, Founder
FB: Channeling Tequila
IG: @channelingtequila
Email: channelingtequila@gmail.com
At least not for this post! Down the line it may come into play . .another P word! Yes you all have dirty minds and quite frankly I enjoy an adventerous mind with a plethora of things flowing. Like how I threw yet another P word into the mix!?
With all seriousness the P word I am referring to in this blog is Peace! The Power of P(eace)! Let me tell y'all something . . when you have that "peace that surpasses all understanding" that is mentioned in many religious realms, it ain't nothing like it! Your life literally turns into an arena of POWER, PROGRESSION, PROSPERITY, PROMISE, PURPOSE and most of all PEACEFULNESS! I had not experienced The Power of P until I experienced learning who I am. Once I was on board with all my flaws, quirks, imperfections and ugliness not defined by others . . .I then understood what The Power of P really and truly was.
Funny thing is on today I had my therapist visit and I began to cry explaining to her how excited and how passionate I am about my Channeling Tequila Mind Body Soul #findyourhappy event. (P.S. Tickets are still available. Please see the Event Blog Post). She understood whole-heartedly because she has witnessed my transformation first hand. She said to me . ."I wish I was able to come so that I could attest to what this truly means to you as I have seen you at your very lowest, depressed, broken, vulnerable but still full of faith and pushing forward. They just don't know the whole story like I do." Then she proceeded to say I am like no one she has ever provided therapy to in her 30+ years in the business. Obviously I impact alot of lives on a daily basis with the many hats I wear, but to hear and know that I am so very unique to this professional . . .another play on a P word . . .was so uplifting and important to me. Honey let me tell you . . .she has seen me cry, snot, scream, laugh all in one damn hour session! Not to mention when I tell it . .I tell it ALL!! My shit . .his shit . .they shit . .everybody shit! You know why? Because that's owning your truth and brings that PEACE that surpasses all understanding that I have come to love and adore.
I have nothing to hide anymore and I'm not running FROM anything. I'm running TO all the POWER, PROGRESSION, PROSPERITY, PROMISE, PURPOSE and most of all PEACEFULNESS that has come to me in due season. YES I questioned why all these things happened? Then I remember that everything happens for a PURPOSE in our lives and my things happened to get me to EXACTLY where I am right now at the right time! I am living my BEST LIFE because I can honestly say that my truth is out there. I don't do things for accolades and I don't do things for allies. People will try to paint you to look like they want you to look; however on the flip side of the easel there is always the true picture of who you really are . . .and THAT is what will be known. Not by a few . . .or your "crew" but by many because of your character that shines through continually and at all times. A wise young man said to me just recently . . "I don't define your character by the actions of someone else." That is what's important when things are all said an done! We've all made mistakes and decisions that have impacted our lives in one way or another. The real test is when you can acknowledge and accept your role in those decisions and own your TRUTH . . .not a P word, but hey . . .it's important to know!
The Power Of P! What is your P word?
#findyourhappy
With Love,
LR Wilson, Founder
FB: Channeling Tequila
IG: @channelingtequila
Email: channelingtequila@gmail.com
Friday, May 4, 2018
OPEN LETTER
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you made me feel like I was useless, I would not have found how useful I really am.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you made me feel unworthy, I would not have found my worth that was hidden so deep inside, that I myself couldn't seem to find.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you made me feel stupid, I would not have found my intellect.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you showed me how much you didn't care, I would not have found that I only needed to care about myself.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you made me feel inadequate, I would not have found that I am enough.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you questioned my devotion, I would not have found that mine wasn't the one questionable.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you called me out my name, I would not have found my true identity.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you made me feel weak, I would not have found my strength.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you showed me that I wasn't beautiful, I would not have seen my beauty.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you made me question my existence, I would not have understood that I lived.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you said I wouldn't be happy, I would not have #foundMYhappy.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you said Just Do You, I would not have known that's exactly what I was supposed to do.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for all those things, I would not have been able to say THANK YOU!
#findyourhappy
LR Wilson, Founder
FB: Channeling Tequila
IG: @channelingtequila
Email: channelingtequila@gmail.com
Friday, April 27, 2018
Plot Twist!
Life happens to everybody. Some things planned, some things
unplanned, some things just happen in the universe that should happen.
Either way, there will always be a Plot Twist in your life when things don't go
as planned! Of course, I "planned" "until death do us
part". Well clearly that didn't happen; however the word death has a
whole different meaning for me. Death of the relationship is what parted
us. It's literally like mourning at a funeral of a loved one. That
feeling is indeed the same. Plot Twist!
Then I lived again after
death! I thought for sure my life was over when my relationship was
over. It was NOT!! I didn't know it wasn't because that's all I
focused on when in reality it was just beginning! I began to do things I have never done before but always wanted
to do. The one thing I did was participate in a Spoken Word event.
It was AMAZING!! It's something that I have wanted to do FOREVER but never did
because I was too busy making sure everyone else was happy and getting what
they needed. Plot Twist! I SLAYED IT! I recited my When I
Love poem from my Sweet Dreams Collection.
When I love, I
love hard because that's what I do
You can take it or leave it . .that's on you
Love me for who I am and not what you want me to be
Love me because it's what's right...the one thing that sets you free
Free from all the distractions
Distractions that take away from us
When I love, I love hard because that's who I am
Continually giving all that I have to a man
Losing self in spite of the circumstance
Only to give the love I so desperately seek
The love that's suppose to be between you and me
When I love, I love hard no matter what the cost
Paying the price of stepping aside so you can be the boss
The king you say you are suppose to be
Why is it that you can't see the queen in me?
Blinded by your selfish desires and transparent ways
You can't see pass the facade to the truth
Not because you're seeking it, but because you're scared to lose sight of you
You can take it or leave it . .that's on you
Love me for who I am and not what you want me to be
Love me because it's what's right...the one thing that sets you free
Free from all the distractions
Distractions that take away from us
When I love, I love hard because that's who I am
Continually giving all that I have to a man
Losing self in spite of the circumstance
Only to give the love I so desperately seek
The love that's suppose to be between you and me
When I love, I love hard no matter what the cost
Paying the price of stepping aside so you can be the boss
The king you say you are suppose to be
Why is it that you can't see the queen in me?
Blinded by your selfish desires and transparent ways
You can't see pass the facade to the truth
Not because you're seeking it, but because you're scared to lose sight of you
When I love, I love hard because that's what I do
So if you want what I have to give
You should love me just as hard as I love you
Sweet Dreams Collection
I have always enjoyed inspiring others to be their very best so my next LIVING moment was when I began planning what God had already planned for me in the spiritual realm! YES my empowerment event Channeling Tequila #findyourhappy MIND ~ BODY ~ SOUL event that will be happening on June 24th. I can't even began to tell you how excited I am for this to happen. I have come to the conclusion that those who are supposed to be there . .will be! Those who are not . .are not purposed to be there. Everything happens for a divine reason and it will happen just as ordered!
What's your Plot Twist moment in your life? How will you embrace the change and keep things moving forward into your destiny? Remember that YOU ARE WORTH every Plot Twist moment and only YOU can write the story!
#findyourhappy
With Love,
LR Wilson, Founder
FB: Channeling Tequila Page
IG: @channelingtequila
Friday, April 20, 2018
DREAM CATCHER!
The meaning of Dream Catcher as published in Dictionary.com "a small hoop containing a horsehair mesh, or a similar construction of string or yarn, decorated with feathers and beads, believed to give its owner good dreams. Dreamcatchers were originally made by American Indians." If you've never had the opportunity to see a Dream Catcher, you really should because they are amazingly beautiful.
Many of us grew up with dreams of this or that happening in our lives. I remember dreaming that I would have a white picket fence, a nuclear family, be a house wife and LOVE every minute of it! YEA . .PUMP THE BRAKES . . .that is/did not happen. Instead what I got was . .in the first marital arrangement . .a kid . . .annnnndddd . .yep that's it! That whole picket fence, nuclear family and being a house wife did not work out for me in that situation. Now here I am a DREAM CATCHER . .waiting for something to be thrown my way. I couldn't understand what went wrong . .at that time of course. As I look back now I see EVERYTHING that went wrong. First and foremost I got married WAYYYYY TOO YOUNG, at 16 that happened. Secondly, I was under the impression that once you get married it's like a for real forever thing. Boy was I awakened!! Lastly, I understood without a doubt that mama's baby is just that mama's baby. I was solely responsible for her well being and anything else that transpired in her life. I had to grow up REAL FAST!
Fast forwarding into another relationship, three more kids, finally a home and a chain link fence happened. Things were going well . . .until they weren't. My fault, his fault, our fault . .and whomever else felt the need to intertwine their drama happened. Yea so we will just keep moving this train along the track right into a derailing moment. DREAM CATCHER is a bit left at the moment; however I was able to get in a few more dreams that I never thought I would want to do. I went to school, acquired several higher educational degrees and great jobs that I love. I dreamed of inspiring others and doing things to assist them in knowing that they are WORTH IT! No matter what they have been told, grew up feeling, been through . . it's all irrelevant when it comes to displaying your DREAM CATCHER!
My ultimate DREAM CATCHER moment was when I was able to put together the Channeling Tequila #findyourhappy Event which will be held on June 24, 2018!! I cried when everything was coming together because I was told that I wouldn't be anything. I couldn't do this or that without someone else there. Well I did and I will! It was a surreal moment for me which is why I am so very passionate about people coming out. I am not making much of anything off of the event because that's not what it's about for me. It's about knowing, finding and igniting your WORTH and HAPPINESS. I know that all things will come full circle and the blessings will flow through the mesh of my DREAM CATCHER!
What will flow through your DREAM CATCHER? Are you coming out to #findyourhappy on June 24, 2018? I can't wait to see you there!
#findyourhappy
With Love,
LR Wilson, Founder
FB: Channeling Tequila Page
IG: @channelingtequila
Email: channelingtequila@gmail.com
Many of us grew up with dreams of this or that happening in our lives. I remember dreaming that I would have a white picket fence, a nuclear family, be a house wife and LOVE every minute of it! YEA . .PUMP THE BRAKES . . .that is/did not happen. Instead what I got was . .in the first marital arrangement . .a kid . . .annnnndddd . .yep that's it! That whole picket fence, nuclear family and being a house wife did not work out for me in that situation. Now here I am a DREAM CATCHER . .waiting for something to be thrown my way. I couldn't understand what went wrong . .at that time of course. As I look back now I see EVERYTHING that went wrong. First and foremost I got married WAYYYYY TOO YOUNG, at 16 that happened. Secondly, I was under the impression that once you get married it's like a for real forever thing. Boy was I awakened!! Lastly, I understood without a doubt that mama's baby is just that mama's baby. I was solely responsible for her well being and anything else that transpired in her life. I had to grow up REAL FAST!
Fast forwarding into another relationship, three more kids, finally a home and a chain link fence happened. Things were going well . . .until they weren't. My fault, his fault, our fault . .and whomever else felt the need to intertwine their drama happened. Yea so we will just keep moving this train along the track right into a derailing moment. DREAM CATCHER is a bit left at the moment; however I was able to get in a few more dreams that I never thought I would want to do. I went to school, acquired several higher educational degrees and great jobs that I love. I dreamed of inspiring others and doing things to assist them in knowing that they are WORTH IT! No matter what they have been told, grew up feeling, been through . . it's all irrelevant when it comes to displaying your DREAM CATCHER!
My ultimate DREAM CATCHER moment was when I was able to put together the Channeling Tequila #findyourhappy Event which will be held on June 24, 2018!! I cried when everything was coming together because I was told that I wouldn't be anything. I couldn't do this or that without someone else there. Well I did and I will! It was a surreal moment for me which is why I am so very passionate about people coming out. I am not making much of anything off of the event because that's not what it's about for me. It's about knowing, finding and igniting your WORTH and HAPPINESS. I know that all things will come full circle and the blessings will flow through the mesh of my DREAM CATCHER!
What will flow through your DREAM CATCHER? Are you coming out to #findyourhappy on June 24, 2018? I can't wait to see you there!
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#findyourhappy
With Love,
LR Wilson, Founder
FB: Channeling Tequila Page
IG: @channelingtequila
Email: channelingtequila@gmail.com
Friday, April 13, 2018
MIRROR MIRROR
MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . . who is the flyest of them all?? Well clearly it wasn't me as I understood it to be. I have been secure in every part of my life, including being overweight . .or big boned as we say in the South . . .until it came to my personal relationship. I had NO CLUE how insecure I was in dealing with my own happiness as an individual in the relationship. I think I'm pretty good at most things . .well minus mechanical stuff and things that require me to entertain manual labor! So everything else . .LOL!
Growing up I was the light-skinned, long hair, shapely girl so I received alot of attention. Some warranted and wanted, but most unwanted because some people just work my nerves. Sorry . .I digressed so early on in this blog post. Anyway . .I never knew that I was "different" from my sisters until I got older. It never dawned on my personally that we came in all different shades. It wasn't until society pointed it out to me. We were never taught "color" growing up so yea I had no clue. MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all??
I'll never forget my grandmother Rosie trained me to brush my hair 100 times every night before bed. I mean it was all fun and games when I was younger as I sat or stood in front of the mirror brushing and brushing. Then as I got older it became a hassle. I had NO TIME to be brushing my hair. I needed to get out and about. I had friends and boys waiting for me. YES BOYS! It was about that time that I was told that I was different from my sisters. They came flocking and I was right there to hang onto their every word of how beautiful and fine I was. Little did I know this was all a ploy to get me to 1) sex and 2) that first kid as a teenager. MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all?
YEP .. I was astonished by how many boys wanted to "talk" to me. Now the conversations they were having did not fit my thought process. I grew up real fast because I wanted to fit in and stay in their "sight". I compromised my purity, my emotions and my body for these boys. These boys that showed me such much attention. I was young and dumb for sure!! You would think as I got older I would have learned my lesson and kept it moving. UH NO. . .attention I craved and it didn't matter that it was negative attention wrapped in a wonderfully glitter box with a bow! It came with sacrifices that I was not yet ready for. . .ME! MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all?
As I fast forward through middle school and onto high school I was pregnant with my first child at 15 years old and gave birth at 16. Throw in a marriage and we have a full blown instant family. It's like Easy Mac . .. just add water and put it in the microwave on 3.5 minutes . . .BAM IT'S READY!!! Yea .. but I wasn't ready, he wasn't ready and the world damn sho wasn't ready for what was instantly created. Well . . I got to keep the kid and let the other party go after moving across what seemed like the other side of the world, it was California from Mississippi, some ups, downs, inside and outside drama. One of the best decisions I made in my life .. I must say. If we're counting by this point. MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all?
After all that chaos in my life I bounced back to MS stayed for a spell as they say . .so about a year if that long . .then I packed up my kid and moved to MN. My cousin also had a daughter at the time and our aunt lived here in MN so we decided to do the same. I was 17 at this point. I got my full $96 in welfare and my $300 in food stamps, bought a Greyhound bus ticket for myself. Had that other party buy one for my little girl, 2 years old at the time and we got on the Greyhound bus. I had one suitcase with ALL of our stuff in it and she had on a Barney backpack with snacks and toys in it. Her worldly possessions!! MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . . who is the flyest of them all?
YEP ME FINALLY! I did that!! Now some 26 years later look at me!! I'm a Public Safety Guru, a travel business owner, a blogger, published poet and a professor. Those aren't even the REAL important roles!! I'm first and foremost A MOM!! YEA we know I've been through some shit, some by my own fault . .some not . .but at the end of the day . .it all came to pass. There's ALOT more to come so you'll just need to keep coming back for more . .and telling other people to read this blog . . it's pretty damn fantastic I must admit. With all this said . .just know that YOU CAN DO IT! No matter what life throws your way YOU have the ability to make things work. The instant ingredients include, time, patience and determination. The MOST IMPORTANT ingredient of all is FAITH! FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD. What is it that you want to happen in your life by standing in front of and chanting MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all? Whatever it may be .. it's time to #findyourhappy!
I can't wait to see you all at the Channeling Tequila #findyourhappy Event!! This will be one of my best babies to date that has birthed!!
Respectfully
LR WILSON, Founder
FB: Channeling Tequila page
IG: @channelingtequila
Growing up I was the light-skinned, long hair, shapely girl so I received alot of attention. Some warranted and wanted, but most unwanted because some people just work my nerves. Sorry . .I digressed so early on in this blog post. Anyway . .I never knew that I was "different" from my sisters until I got older. It never dawned on my personally that we came in all different shades. It wasn't until society pointed it out to me. We were never taught "color" growing up so yea I had no clue. MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all??
I'll never forget my grandmother Rosie trained me to brush my hair 100 times every night before bed. I mean it was all fun and games when I was younger as I sat or stood in front of the mirror brushing and brushing. Then as I got older it became a hassle. I had NO TIME to be brushing my hair. I needed to get out and about. I had friends and boys waiting for me. YES BOYS! It was about that time that I was told that I was different from my sisters. They came flocking and I was right there to hang onto their every word of how beautiful and fine I was. Little did I know this was all a ploy to get me to 1) sex and 2) that first kid as a teenager. MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all?
YEP .. I was astonished by how many boys wanted to "talk" to me. Now the conversations they were having did not fit my thought process. I grew up real fast because I wanted to fit in and stay in their "sight". I compromised my purity, my emotions and my body for these boys. These boys that showed me such much attention. I was young and dumb for sure!! You would think as I got older I would have learned my lesson and kept it moving. UH NO. . .attention I craved and it didn't matter that it was negative attention wrapped in a wonderfully glitter box with a bow! It came with sacrifices that I was not yet ready for. . .ME! MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all?
As I fast forward through middle school and onto high school I was pregnant with my first child at 15 years old and gave birth at 16. Throw in a marriage and we have a full blown instant family. It's like Easy Mac . .. just add water and put it in the microwave on 3.5 minutes . . .BAM IT'S READY!!! Yea .. but I wasn't ready, he wasn't ready and the world damn sho wasn't ready for what was instantly created. Well . . I got to keep the kid and let the other party go after moving across what seemed like the other side of the world, it was California from Mississippi, some ups, downs, inside and outside drama. One of the best decisions I made in my life .. I must say. If we're counting by this point. MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all?
After all that chaos in my life I bounced back to MS stayed for a spell as they say . .so about a year if that long . .then I packed up my kid and moved to MN. My cousin also had a daughter at the time and our aunt lived here in MN so we decided to do the same. I was 17 at this point. I got my full $96 in welfare and my $300 in food stamps, bought a Greyhound bus ticket for myself. Had that other party buy one for my little girl, 2 years old at the time and we got on the Greyhound bus. I had one suitcase with ALL of our stuff in it and she had on a Barney backpack with snacks and toys in it. Her worldly possessions!! MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . . who is the flyest of them all?
YEP ME FINALLY! I did that!! Now some 26 years later look at me!! I'm a Public Safety Guru, a travel business owner, a blogger, published poet and a professor. Those aren't even the REAL important roles!! I'm first and foremost A MOM!! YEA we know I've been through some shit, some by my own fault . .some not . .but at the end of the day . .it all came to pass. There's ALOT more to come so you'll just need to keep coming back for more . .and telling other people to read this blog . . it's pretty damn fantastic I must admit. With all this said . .just know that YOU CAN DO IT! No matter what life throws your way YOU have the ability to make things work. The instant ingredients include, time, patience and determination. The MOST IMPORTANT ingredient of all is FAITH! FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD. What is it that you want to happen in your life by standing in front of and chanting MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all? Whatever it may be .. it's time to #findyourhappy!
I can't wait to see you all at the Channeling Tequila #findyourhappy Event!! This will be one of my best babies to date that has birthed!!
Respectfully
LR WILSON, Founder
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