MIRROR MIRROR

MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . . who is the flyest of them all??  Well clearly it wasn't me as I understood it to be.  I have been secure in every part of my life, including being overweight . .or big boned as we say in the South . . .until it came to my personal relationship.  I had NO CLUE how insecure I was in dealing with my own happiness as an individual in the relationship.  I think I'm pretty good at most things . .well minus mechanical stuff and things that require me to entertain manual labor! So everything else . .LOL!

Growing up I was the light-skinned, long hair, shapely girl so I received alot of attention.  Some warranted and wanted, but most unwanted because some people just work my nerves.  Sorry . .I digressed so early on in this blog post.  Anyway . .I never knew that I was "different" from my sisters until I got older.  It never dawned on my personally that we came in all different shades.  It wasn't until society pointed it out to me.  We were never taught "color" growing up so yea I had no clue.  MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all??

I'll never forget my grandmother Rosie trained me to brush my hair 100 times every night before bed.  I mean it was all fun and games when I was younger as I sat or stood in front of the mirror brushing and brushing.  Then as I got older it became a hassle.  I had NO TIME to be brushing my hair.  I needed to get out and about.  I had friends and boys waiting for me.  YES BOYS!  It was about that time that I was told that I was different from my sisters.  They came flocking and I was right there to hang onto their every word of how beautiful and fine I was.  Little did I know this was all a ploy to get me to 1) sex and 2) that first kid as a teenager.  MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all?

YEP .. I was astonished by how many boys wanted to "talk" to me.  Now the conversations they were having did not fit my thought process.  I grew up real fast because I wanted to fit in and stay in their "sight".  I compromised my purity, my emotions and my body for these boys.  These boys that showed me such much attention.  I was young and dumb for sure!!  You would think as I got older I would have learned my lesson and kept it moving.  UH NO. . .attention I craved and it didn't matter that it was negative attention wrapped in a wonderfully glitter box with a bow!  It came with sacrifices that I was not yet ready for. . .ME!  MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all?

As I fast forward through middle school and onto high school I was pregnant with my first child at 15 years old and gave birth at 16.  Throw in a marriage and we have a full blown instant family.  It's like Easy Mac . .. just add water and put it in the microwave on 3.5 minutes . . .BAM IT'S READY!!!  Yea .. but I wasn't ready, he wasn't ready and the world damn sho wasn't ready for what was instantly created.  Well . . I got to keep the kid and let the other party go after moving across what seemed like the other side of the world, it was California from Mississippi, some ups, downs, inside and outside drama.  One of the best decisions I made in my life .. I must say.  If we're counting by this point.  MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all?

After all that chaos in my life I bounced back to MS stayed for a spell as they say . .so about a year if that long . .then I packed up my kid and moved to MN.  My cousin also had a daughter at the time and our aunt lived here in MN so we decided to do the same.  I was 17 at this point.  I got my full $96 in welfare and my $300 in food stamps, bought a Greyhound bus ticket for myself.  Had that other party buy one for my little girl, 2 years old at the time and we got on the Greyhound bus.  I had one suitcase with ALL of our stuff in it and she had on a Barney backpack with snacks and toys in it.  Her worldly possessions!!  MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . . who is the flyest of them all?

YEP ME FINALLY!  I did that!!  Now some 26 years later look at me!!  I'm a Public Safety Guru, a travel business owner, a blogger, published poet and a professor.  Those aren't even the REAL important roles!!  I'm first and foremost A MOM!!  YEA we know I've been through some shit, some by my own fault . .some not . .but at the end of the day . .it all came to pass.  There's ALOT more to come so you'll just need to keep coming back for more . .and telling other people to read this blog . . it's pretty damn fantastic I must admit.  With all this said . .just know that YOU CAN DO IT!  No matter what life throws your way YOU have the ability to make things work.  The instant ingredients include, time, patience and determination.  The MOST IMPORTANT ingredient of all is FAITH!  FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD.  What is it that you want to happen in your life by standing in front of and chanting MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all?  Whatever it may be .. it's time to #findyourhappy!

I can't wait to see you all at the Channeling Tequila #findyourhappy Event!!  This will be one of my best babies to date that has birthed!!

Respectfully
LR WILSON, Founder
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