Memory Don't Fail Me Now!

Earlier this week I had a conversation with someone that reminded me of all the things I did NOT want in my life ever again. I posted the following on social media:

"Every now and again you have that Ah Ha moment of remembrance. I'm here to let you know that it's not by chance or circumstance that you have it. That's to remind you of where you were...where you don't ever want to be again...where you are...and where you're going. Once you taste those magical seasonings called respect and appreciation...you NEVER want to go back to bland, superficial and artificial. There will always be teachable moments in our lives. It's up to you to do what you want with them!"

When I tell y'all how all the feelings of trauma...not victimization...but trauma came rushing over me...it was something I don't believe I've ever felt. It was literally like I suffered from PTSD. I very may have some of that; however at the same time I was awakened. It's crazy to me how we can sometimes treat people less than, then expect to be treated a different way. Stop putting things out into the universe that you're not ready to boomerang back.

I'm one of the nicest people I've ever met lol...but when I get to a point of disgust with a person and/or their behavior, "I'm gud luv..enjoy!" I promise I can act like you never existed in my life. Annnndddd still help you in need without hesitation...immediately resuming your nonexistence afterwards. Apologies are necessary whenever you truly want to be healed. Just like forgiveness, apologies aren't for the person that was hurt, it's for you!

In times like the ones above, I have to activate my Wonder Woman tiara skills. Yes, it's pretty and shiny but it's also a weapon. I tend to keep it ready at all times because you need to always be ready to cut down negativity in your life from all angles!

Remember to do right by people to the best of your ability and things will fall into place for you. Pride will kill the already dead!

#findyourhappy

With Love,

LR Wilson, Founder
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Emotions

As I blasted the lyrics of Emotions by Destiny's Child on Valentine's Day..

"It's over and done
But the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
Instead of me tonight?

Ooo baby
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
Cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion taken me over"

I would be lying and NOT transparent if I sat here and wrote something saying I wasn't caught up. Not so much in the relationship that I am no longer in...but just having that "acknowledgement" was more of the issue. Yes I received many Happy Valentine's Day text, instant messages, gifts, calls etc but it's just not the same as what I am use to. I can say that this year I did not cry so that's a victory in itself!

I received gifts from friends and even dinner with drinks. I cherish each of those things as well as the people. With that said.. something was missing....uh yea a real relationship! I did third wheel it with a couple..that was fun..but y'all know there is nothing like your own.

In time things will become the norm. I am blessed to have so many that love me everyday and V Day is just another day. I prefer love and GIFTS...stop...all year long. Those of you who did get the love you needed and desired as well as any gifts on your special day...CONGRATS! Enjoy and embrace every moment of it. Always remember the good times and the love that is shared.

Caught up in emotions....yep that was me. Annnndddd now we move forward.

#findyourhappy

With Love,

LR Wilson, Founder
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Why Knot Love?

When you've gone through what I endured during my marriage, you tend to not want to love ever again. Obviously we had some wonderful times through the years before and after we were married. The only issue is that those times are the ones we tend to forget about and focus on what happened. I mean if you can actually pinpoint "When the Yoke Broke", that would be great! That's a plug for a previous blog post that somebody need to see! So you're welcome!

Sorry I got sidetracked as I often do when my mind is on 1000 things at once. So back to me being afraid to love again. I want to love again, I think but at the same time my wall is higher than the Great Wall of China right now. I can't even envision myself giving my all to another relationship because of the fear of repetition. I'm worthy of giving and receiving love; yet I'm skeptical of both.

I'm here to tell y'all that this whole single thing is new and fun. You're bound to catch feelings thrown your way at some juncture, I'm sure. The question is will I be ready?? Most of the guys I've encountered say "you're like nobody I've ever met before"; "what is it about you?"; "why are you single?" and my favorite one is "why wouldn't he want steak?". Then I got to thinking about all of those questions. Let's break these down!

1. You're like nobody I've ever met before. This prompted me to examine well damn who am I? Is that a good thing or a bad thing? I figured it out....it's an amazing thing because I'm unique.

2. What is it about you? Oh I know what it is...I'm real and don't play games. I tell you exactly what I want and where I stand. If you don't like it...move around. I'm no longer silent or biting my tongue to avoid an unnecessary argument.

3. Why are you single? Because I'm divorced due to infidelity on my part is what I was told and I'm only at liberty to own only my truth. Then I give the rundown of how it all went down. Crazy thing is they still want to stay. Meh...ok

4. Why wouldn't he want steak? Now that I have no clue about because I am Grade A! Lol

When I love I love hard which is a blessing and a curse. I can't really take another chance of missed reciprocity. I want to receive the same love that I'm putting out. Once I care about you, it's all in for me. Once I don't care about you, it's a wrap for me. Some people will always be apart of your life no matter what. That's exactly where me and my exhusband are currently. We were together since I was 17 so I would hope people understand where I'm coming from. If not...well ok...lol! I will more than likely always have love for him.

Now let me make this perfectly clear....we are divorced and I'm good with that....finally! All I know is once whoever he is breaks down the Great Wall of LR WILSON, he will have earned that spot in my heart. I'm not looking and I'm not in a hurry. I will be found...that's a promise!

Proverbs 18:22 The man who finds a wife finds a treasure, and he receives favor from the LORD. NLT

Believe in yourself. Love yourself. Be yourself.

#findyourhappy

With Love,

LR Wilson, Founder
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Let

~ Let Me School You ~

See I love compliments here and there
It's your delivery that I fear
So let me share

I'm more than a pretty face and a fat ass
I'm a smidget of hood with a splash of class

I'll hold you down from here to the moon
Yet I can walk in and my presence commands the room

All attention on me, but the question remains...is that who you see?

See I love compliments here and there
It's your delivery that I fear
So let me share

Hey lightskin, red bone and even chick is what you yell
You've already missed the best part hell!

That's what you see with the naked eye
Yet it's my soul crying out that you deny

Go on with your life and leave me be
It's not you that I need to validate me

Lest I remind you who I am
A bad ass woman in command
I'm all of the things you don't see
Plus every compliment you gave me

Now that you know where we stand
Step aside...you're blocking my view of a real man

Sweet Dreams Collection

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When You're All You Need

Often times we tend to focus on others and their needs. Continually move farther and farther away from helping our own selves. Putting our wants, needs and desires first hit that back burner on the stove. It's classic and we have been conditioned to do that. Well when we actually have a heart. Having a heart is both a blessing and a curse.

When You're All You Need...you have to remember that you must come first in order to be effective in every part of your life. Yes, I am a believer in God and ultimately anything that happens is because he allowed it to happen. Obviously He is in control so when I talk about "When You're All You Need" it's about making sure you are putting your needs first. Depression is a real thing for those of you who "pretend" it doesn't exist. Especially in the black and brown communities. Hmmmm....not sure where that came from...but hell it's said now!

Back to When You're All You Need! We go through alot of ups and downs in life. That's supposed to happen. If things were always going right, we wouldn't know sacrifice. If things were always going wrong, we wouldn't know problem solving. Life is a lesson! One big ass semester that never ends! You continually pass or fail the exams. You celebrate the pass and you work harder on the fails so you're successful the next go round! When You're All You Need....you got this!! Take the baton and run with it to the finish line!

Live life. Love life. Laugh at life!

#findyourhappy

With Love,
LR WILSON, FOUNDER
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