So about a week ago...a week ago! Sorry digressed with that lyric playing in my head! Anyway...it was about a week ago when I had a massive emotional breakdown. Life was coming at me from every direction and although it seems minuscule now, it was giant in the moment. Things were breaking down in the house I'm trying to sell and I was paying to get those things fixed. My car was making noises. I didn't see how I could attend my family reunion from a financial aspect. Juggling watching my granddiva and making sure there was enough food in the house everyday became alot. I'm usually pretty good with everything and I handle stress well...or so I thought. Mainly because I guess I don't stress over shit. If I have no control of it I don't seem to worry. Well this was not the case because I'm trying to do things and make a better life for myself and my kids financially. So during this breakdown that was coming...which I had not prepared for...the people that I KNOW or THOUGHT I KNEW would be there for me were not. I don't expect people to do for me or be there for me normally, but this time felt different. I have learned to live by No Expectations equal No Disappointments.
Yes...it was disheartening to say the least but it taught me a valuable lesson about this thing called life....Your Presence is No Longer Required. Through the years I have cut people out of my life and vice versa. Those times either were a blessing or a blessing. Yes I wrote it exactly as I should have. Sometimes you have to chalk things up and move on in order to be your best self. When you figure out that someone or some thing's presence is no longer required in your life, you have reached a whole different level of self acceptance and awareness.
Now there were those who came to my rescue without even knowing they were and those who were fully aware that I'm not myself. They saw through my "I'm fine" yet didn't force themselves on me. They also know that when I'm going through I need distance and to do me in order to get to "I'm ok". Thank you to those near and far who saw right through the smoke and mirrors.
Cutting people off is both freeing yet sad. For whatever reason you need to announce Your Presence is No Longer Required, be sure and very sure that's what works for YOU. Don't do things that allow you to compromise who you are in order to appease them. Remain true to yourself and what you have to do in order to #findyourhappy
It's not always pretty but yet necessary. In the event someone feels as if they need to cut you out of their lives, be ok with it and move right along as painful as it may be....it's for you and possibly for them also to move to the next level. We never know what is going on with people even when they tell us because no one person, in my experience, will tell you all that's going on but reach out to people when they cross your mind. Don't change who you are. Remain consistent yet guarded. Don't be afraid to put your sanity first and announce Your Presence is No Longer Required!
#findyourhappy
With Love,
LR Wilson, Founder
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