Unapologetic

Unapologetic for being exactly the person you groomed me to be
The one that lied in order for you to see me

Unapologetic for leaving the girl you once knew behind
Her innocence shattered from your lies

Unapologetic for believing that one day she could be exactly what you needed
Only to realize she had been defeated

Unapologetic for unanswered questions that you really didn't want the answers to
Those same questions that you just knew you knew

Unapologetic for the way you viewed her soul
Naive enough to believe that the two of you would grow old
Sitting together reciting stories untold

Unapologetic for the worth you threw away
I'm exactly what you thought I would never be on this very day

Unapologetic for the tears that were shed
Spending days and sometimes weeks in bed

Unapologetic for the strength I gained
Through the trials, tribulations and pain

Unapologetic for walking in my destiny
I'm going to be exactly who you believed I couldn't be

Unapologetic for who I am now
A woman with purpose...I know right.. WOW!

I said all of this in order to say
I'm unapologetic in that way

Sweet Dreams Collection
LR Wilson

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It's My Bloggerversary!!

Today is my Bloggerversary!!!! Yes I made that up right here and right now. This month has been all of the following for me:

Serenity
The month of December has brought me so much peace to unreconciled feelings in my life. We come and go everyday and people don't even know us well enough to see that we are not at peace with many things. In my case it's been old feelings. Because I'm human. .when you care about someone or something and those feelings are suppressed, they find their way of seeping out. Mine came out in tears. Tears of remembrance of the good times and tears of joy which brought me back to my place of serenity.

Power
I never knew just how much power I have until this month as well. Believing in myself is an ongoing struggle for me in many areas. The reason being is I want things to be done right and never let myself done. I am indeed my worst critic. Once I received the final divorce decree I began to reflect on all the things I needed to get done ASAP. I began them, then I was halted in my steps. I felt powerless and like I won't be able to get things done because I wanted them to happen instantaneously. Well I'm here to tell you...that's not how it works. So I'm just slowing down and regaining the power I do have...waiting for direction at the appropriate time.

Integrity
Yes honey!! I had to hold my head up and move right along knowing that I was doing the right thing. I asked for nothing more and nothing less than I rightfully deserved and was supposed to have. I don't understand how people have time to be spiteful in divorce proceedings. If nothing else...please have some integrity in what you're doing. Not only you are being affected, everyone in your circle will be affected. Show them that you have integrity so they too will model that same behavior in things they encounter. Be on the up and up!

Perseverance
I've been fighting for my life since I left my mother's womb! It's safe to say that I will stay the course and push through with all that I have. I'm someone that doesn't give up easy, hence the years it took to get to this place I am now. I may become discouraged at times because I want things to happen now, but the difference with me from some is that I don't give up until I've made it my business to try everything in MY power to make it happen. I'm a soldier and I'm a survivor. It's what I do!

Redemption
Finally this is my redemption story. Writing this blog was one of the best therapy session additions I have ever encountered. It has allowed me to be candid and honest with myself as well as with the audience. Some days were really hard during these last 52 weeks since I started, but it needed to happen in order for me to ARRIVE!

People were inquiring about what I was going to say on the Bloggerversary blog. I said I don't know because I haven't been given direction. I wait and wait and wait...lo and behold the fingers get to pecking away at the keyboard as words, emotions, truths hit the page.

There are big plans in the works for 2019 and Channeling Tequila brand. Whatever you do in life...just know that IT WILL HAPPEN if you have serenity, power, integrity, and perseverance to get to redemption!

Thank you so very much for allowing me to be a part of your story in whatever way I have been. I'm turning the page and opening a new chapter. Will you come with me on this journey?

#findyourhappy

With Love
LR Wilson, Founder
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Round of Applause!

One of my favorite songs is Take a Bow by Rihanna.  The chorus is very profound and goes like this:

How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
Now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
But it's over now

When we approach the end of things, no matter what it may be, we tend to reflect on what happened to get us to this place or what is going to happen after arriving at the end.  Well, guess what . .we have reached the end and right now I am at a rebuild state of my life.  As painful, insulting and embarrassing as a divorce is, we have to accept things as they are and move right along. Congratulate those who played a part in it because there is no time like the present to rebuild who you are!  I have been doing just that!  Rebuilding and re-establishing who I am, what I want and how to go about doing it.  I once believed that we were a "power couple" as he told me.  Of course at that time the things I know now I did not know. I would never minimize my role in the whole thing because that's not who I am.  I will say however that . . .we have been through some shit babbbbyyyy . . but at the end of the day I still wanted us to be that "power couple".  Well power is distributed to each of us with different realms of responsibility. 

In order to be part of a "power couple" first things first . . hell you need to be a couple!  Secondly, you must both work towards the same goal and have the same interested investments on how to reach that goal.  Obviously you will not always agree on one strategy to get there, but you must at least come to a common ground.  Everyone has a different way of doing things and just because it's not your way, doesn't exclude it from being a right or wrong way.  The key is COMMON GROUND.    Now that the show is over . . .sadly, yet emphatically I must go on!  I must continue to strive forward and make sure I am doing what's best not only for myself; but for my kids and the people's lives I am impacting on a daily basis. No matter what you are facing . . .please understand that you MUST GO ON!  Many are depending on your success and are applauding you from behind the scenes if not in front of you. You don't really need accolades to be the BEST YOU . . JUST BE IT!

#findyourhappy

With Love,

LR Wilson, Founder

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The Possibility of Possible

This title has been stirring in my soul for several days. As I awaited direction, I also waited for the right words to put to paper. Most often times we underestimate the possibility of possible in our lives. We come and go as if we are robotic never really understanding the reasoning behind our movement. Lord knows in a million years I would have never seen all this movement coming/going!

When you embrace the possibility of possible you allow yourself to open up to new things, new people, new habits and new energy. No one is ever really ready for change, so I'm here to tell you it will be and is hard especially when you didn't see it coming. The last three years of my life have been a rollercoaster physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and financially. If you know me, you know that unless I am at rock bottom damn near licking the dirt, I will not ask for help. I make it work and I make it happen. Obviously through God..who provides all things...but you know what I'm saying.

Some days I did not know if I had enough gas to even get to work and earn a paycheck. That didn't deter me. I'm sure you're probably thinking "well she's working six million jobs and three million side gigs so she should be set". Yes I should be if I didnt have the same financial responsibilities, if not more, that I had in a two income household. That's no longer the case, so I had to lean on God and the understanding of the possibility of possible in order to make it through.

My situation never stopped me from giving to others and helping out in any way I could. I had to believe that things would get better no matter what. My kids needed things..although grown and growing...they still needed things and I made it happen. There's a difference between wanting and needing so I will first point that out. I am blessed to have kids that really only come to me when they have exhausted all other resources. I'll just go ahead and say that we take care of each other. My saying to them is always "when I come up we come up".

There are so many of us who take for granted the possibility of possible. The reason is because we are so focused on making things happen when they don't need to. Don't go into debt trying to do something you simply can not do. You have to be able to live after whatever that is you're wanting to do. The possibility of possible is that you may be able to do it and there's a good chance of it happening...but not now.

Anything you put time and energy into will manifest it self to you...for you and with you. Believe that it will all pay off in the end. All your hard work, determination, and selfless love will prove to be all that was needed. Never underestimate what could happen. It's a matter of timing! The possibility of possible!

#findyourhappy

With Love,
LR Wilson, Founder
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