Growing up I was always taught to "kill them with kindness". At the same time, I was never told that my kindness would indeed by my weakness! Often times I allow my heart to lead me in the direction I am supposed to go. With that said, I also place myself in other people's shoes to determine how to respond. Well all of that has gotten me kicked in the teeth! Killing them with kindness is killing me internally! Let's be perfectly clear . .I am no saint and have never claimed to be; however I do have a heart . . .although black now. . .but you understand what I'm saying!
People will only do what you allow them to do. At some point, killing them with kindness will take its toll on your carnal existence. YES through the eyes of God we are to be nice and not want retaliation for other people's actions. That too allows me to be the person that I am because I believe that God will take care of it all in the end. My question is WHEN IS THIS HAPPENING? You give, give and give people hoping that they will reciprocate and when that doesn't happen, it places you in a moral dilemma. Moral dilemmas are uncomfortable space for me. I hate being the bitch that I very well can be as a Leo; but at times is most definitely has to happen in order to keep my own sanity in place.
Some, including my own family members, can not understand the way I do things. The only way I can explain things is by saying "I try to do what's right by people and I would never want anyone to treat me the way that I clearly would be treated if the shoe was on the other foot." Yea . .they still didn't sway their thinking. Quite frankly the time has come for me to be just that . . continuously unbothered and unconcerned with other people's lives. Even the ones that would and did hang me out to dry. Please feel free to insert whatever your thoughts are here.
My name is LaToya Wilson and I have come to terms with "my kindness is my weakness" to those who desire to USE ME to their advantage. Now that I am able to voice that aloud . . .LET THE GAMES BEGIN!
Don't continue to live in a constant state of "kill them with kindness" when you know damn well that is NOT working out for you and your life so now is the time to make that change. Choose to be free from all aspects of narcissism in order to live your best life!
#findYOURhappy
With Love,
LR Wilson, Founder
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