Incognito!

How is it you didn't know what I needed?  There were so many conversations, I just conceded.  Me telling you over and over again what was missing, yet you never once took into consideration how I was feeling.  Time after time I tried to be what you wanted.  Not thinking for a minute my love was discounted.  I was shown affection from afar so I ran back to you to heal my scar.  Open with loving arms you took me in . . .many many times again and again.  The one time I thought this is it . . you ripped my soul apart and tore it to shreds and shit.  Never will I understand I don't believe; although the superficial reasoning impede.

Meeting this person has been so new to me.  I've never been priority second you see.  I can't imagine how this makes you feel, especially since the heart is so chill.  Cold as ice in every way, literally there's little of nothing to say.  Motives I'm sure I'll never be able to reconcile.  You knew exactly what you were doing with those lies.  Making a way to do what you already wanted to do.  Participating in all those untruths.  Seeking allies in your dysfunctional demise.  Only to rectify what you pretended was right.

Turning back the hands of time would only make things worse.  Reliving all the moments of hunger and thirst.  Hungry for attention and thirsty for the love I thought you would give.  The love that was promised for so many years.  Everything happens for a reason nonetheless.  You got exactly what you wanted so I wish you the best.  Closed doors and windows too . .there's nothing more lonely than not being able to be you.  Pretending to be what you're not, a magician you say?  Full of tricks and gimmicks that serve no purpose anyway. If that's what you want to call it, be my guest.  The reality is I'm still wishing you the best.

Changes happen in order to grow.  It can't happen lying next to someone you don't even know.  We all have wants, needs and desires.  What are you willing to place in the fire?  Selfishly nothing that will put you on the hot seat.  Yet you have every intention of sacrificing me.  Throwing me to the wolves to feast.  Never once did you come to help me defeat.  Hitting rock bottom crying at a sink.  You weren't there to save me.  I realized this one day and had to make a way.  See I'm more than you ever wished I were to be.  You got exactly what you wanted . .to be free.

#findyourhappy

With Love,

LR WILSON, Founder
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