Growing up I never had the pleasure of a "nuclear" family. What exactly is a nuclear family you ask? Well in layman terms it's the perfect family with a white picket fence living happily ever after and the parental unit consist of a mother and a father. Yea . . uh no! For a very long time I held alot of resentment against the wife of my father . . obviously not my mother . .and I blamed her for everything . .including keeping my daddy away. I didn't understand why this happened and I never felt like I was part of "that side" of the family for a very long time as well. I eventually came to terms with things some 30+ years later. Years wasted feeling a certain way about something I didn't even have all the information to even warrant my feelings. Well got over that . .thank God! Crazy thing is I LOVED my damn sisters and had never really had a relationship with any of them on my dad's side. Crazy right??
As we got older we began to communicate and it has been the BEST thing ever. I felt like I had known them all my life in the physical aspect when in reality it was always in my heart that I carried the love for them. It clearly did not take away the feelings I had of not having MY DAD . .in reality OUR DAD. . with me. See I got daddy issues!
See I got daddy issues that I couldn't quite define
The kind that warps your mind
See I got daddy issues that required me to look for love in all the wrong places
The kind that made me wear so many different faces
See I got daddy issues that I didn't even understand
The kind that made me always put myself second to a man
See I got daddy issues that made me want to please
The kind that had me begging and pleading for love on my knees
See I got daddy issues that allowed me to be mistreated and misused
The kind that you don't know about unless you've walked in my shoes
See I got daddy issues that made me believe my body was so dope
The kind that made me wear promiscuity like a cloak
See I got daddy issues searching for that one thing that is missing from my life
The kind that allowed me to become somebody's wife . .not once but twice
See I got daddy issues that made me put up with things I never should have
The kind that make you question why you stayed in the first place, other than to save face
See I got daddy issues that I haven't really gotten over, I would say
The kind that makes me trust no one because they will just leave anyway
See I got daddy issues that required me to be someone I'm not
The kind that will make me cut you off on the spot
See I got daddy issues which allowed me to where my heart on my sleeve
The kind that no one really can conceive
See I got daddy issues that have allowed me to grow into who I am
The kind that helped me to realize that he is just a man
See I got daddy issues that still will make my bottom lip quiver
The kind that makes me wonder if he were there . .would it really be different?
See I got daddy issues that I'm still working through
No matter what happened in the past, I can sincerely say I know that his love is true!
#findyourhappy
With Love,
LR WILSON, Founder
FB: Channeling Tequila
IG: @channelingtequila
Email: channelingtequila@gmail.com
Friday, May 25, 2018
Saturday, May 19, 2018
Purposefully Perfect
Purposefully Perfect yes you are, for every tear you've shed and for every scar. The moments when you thought you were nothing turned out to be the ones that mattered most. You were strong beyond your own beliefs . . you gave life to those things that were beneath.
Purposefully Perfect yes it is you. Stop being so condescending of the things you do. Take pride in all that has come your way. The good, the bad, the indifferent and untrue. Know without a doubt that no one can beat you being you.
Purposefully Perfect when naysayers mock, complain and try to shame you and your name. Don't be mad at them for what they choose. That's their job to hurt and abuse. . it's what haters do. Remember to always thank them for showing their true selves . . .otherwise you wouldn't know anything else.
Purposefully Perfect you have been placed here to do a great work. No one knows the many days of pain and hurt that you went through . .only to birth what is already innate in you. Oxymoron to say the least . . Purposefully Perfect you are a BEAST!
Purposefully Perfect that's what comes to mind every single time. Every time you doubted things wouldn't work out, you somehow made it happen and then began to shout. Singing, dancing and moving as smooth as the ocean's rifts . .yes honey you did that shit!
Purposefully Perfect is all I can say. Not because of repetition, but because that's the BEST WAY to describe such a gift to the world you see . . .Purposefully Perfect is both YOU and ME!
#findyourhappy
With Love,
LR WILSON, Founder
IG: @channelingtequila
FB: Channeling Teuquila
Purposefully Perfect yes it is you. Stop being so condescending of the things you do. Take pride in all that has come your way. The good, the bad, the indifferent and untrue. Know without a doubt that no one can beat you being you.
Purposefully Perfect when naysayers mock, complain and try to shame you and your name. Don't be mad at them for what they choose. That's their job to hurt and abuse. . it's what haters do. Remember to always thank them for showing their true selves . . .otherwise you wouldn't know anything else.
Purposefully Perfect you have been placed here to do a great work. No one knows the many days of pain and hurt that you went through . .only to birth what is already innate in you. Oxymoron to say the least . . Purposefully Perfect you are a BEAST!
Purposefully Perfect that's what comes to mind every single time. Every time you doubted things wouldn't work out, you somehow made it happen and then began to shout. Singing, dancing and moving as smooth as the ocean's rifts . .yes honey you did that shit!
Purposefully Perfect is all I can say. Not because of repetition, but because that's the BEST WAY to describe such a gift to the world you see . . .Purposefully Perfect is both YOU and ME!
#findyourhappy
With Love,
LR WILSON, Founder
IG: @channelingtequila
FB: Channeling Teuquila
Friday, May 11, 2018
The Power of P!
There are so many words that begin with P that literally have power in and/or over our lives. All you readers with as much of a dirty mind as myself . . .go ahead and say what you think P stands for in this blog . . . yep I'm waiting . . .and waiting . . .Soooo yea P is not what you think it stands for . . hahah!
At least not for this post! Down the line it may come into play . .another P word! Yes you all have dirty minds and quite frankly I enjoy an adventerous mind with a plethora of things flowing. Like how I threw yet another P word into the mix!?
With all seriousness the P word I am referring to in this blog is Peace! The Power of P(eace)! Let me tell y'all something . . when you have that "peace that surpasses all understanding" that is mentioned in many religious realms, it ain't nothing like it! Your life literally turns into an arena of POWER, PROGRESSION, PROSPERITY, PROMISE, PURPOSE and most of all PEACEFULNESS! I had not experienced The Power of P until I experienced learning who I am. Once I was on board with all my flaws, quirks, imperfections and ugliness not defined by others . . .I then understood what The Power of P really and truly was.
Funny thing is on today I had my therapist visit and I began to cry explaining to her how excited and how passionate I am about my Channeling Tequila Mind Body Soul #findyourhappy event. (P.S. Tickets are still available. Please see the Event Blog Post). She understood whole-heartedly because she has witnessed my transformation first hand. She said to me . ."I wish I was able to come so that I could attest to what this truly means to you as I have seen you at your very lowest, depressed, broken, vulnerable but still full of faith and pushing forward. They just don't know the whole story like I do." Then she proceeded to say I am like no one she has ever provided therapy to in her 30+ years in the business. Obviously I impact alot of lives on a daily basis with the many hats I wear, but to hear and know that I am so very unique to this professional . . .another play on a P word . . .was so uplifting and important to me. Honey let me tell you . . .she has seen me cry, snot, scream, laugh all in one damn hour session! Not to mention when I tell it . .I tell it ALL!! My shit . .his shit . .they shit . .everybody shit! You know why? Because that's owning your truth and brings that PEACE that surpasses all understanding that I have come to love and adore.
I have nothing to hide anymore and I'm not running FROM anything. I'm running TO all the POWER, PROGRESSION, PROSPERITY, PROMISE, PURPOSE and most of all PEACEFULNESS that has come to me in due season. YES I questioned why all these things happened? Then I remember that everything happens for a PURPOSE in our lives and my things happened to get me to EXACTLY where I am right now at the right time! I am living my BEST LIFE because I can honestly say that my truth is out there. I don't do things for accolades and I don't do things for allies. People will try to paint you to look like they want you to look; however on the flip side of the easel there is always the true picture of who you really are . . .and THAT is what will be known. Not by a few . . .or your "crew" but by many because of your character that shines through continually and at all times. A wise young man said to me just recently . . "I don't define your character by the actions of someone else." That is what's important when things are all said an done! We've all made mistakes and decisions that have impacted our lives in one way or another. The real test is when you can acknowledge and accept your role in those decisions and own your TRUTH . . .not a P word, but hey . . .it's important to know!
The Power Of P! What is your P word?
#findyourhappy
With Love,
LR Wilson, Founder
FB: Channeling Tequila
IG: @channelingtequila
Email: channelingtequila@gmail.com
At least not for this post! Down the line it may come into play . .another P word! Yes you all have dirty minds and quite frankly I enjoy an adventerous mind with a plethora of things flowing. Like how I threw yet another P word into the mix!?
With all seriousness the P word I am referring to in this blog is Peace! The Power of P(eace)! Let me tell y'all something . . when you have that "peace that surpasses all understanding" that is mentioned in many religious realms, it ain't nothing like it! Your life literally turns into an arena of POWER, PROGRESSION, PROSPERITY, PROMISE, PURPOSE and most of all PEACEFULNESS! I had not experienced The Power of P until I experienced learning who I am. Once I was on board with all my flaws, quirks, imperfections and ugliness not defined by others . . .I then understood what The Power of P really and truly was.
Funny thing is on today I had my therapist visit and I began to cry explaining to her how excited and how passionate I am about my Channeling Tequila Mind Body Soul #findyourhappy event. (P.S. Tickets are still available. Please see the Event Blog Post). She understood whole-heartedly because she has witnessed my transformation first hand. She said to me . ."I wish I was able to come so that I could attest to what this truly means to you as I have seen you at your very lowest, depressed, broken, vulnerable but still full of faith and pushing forward. They just don't know the whole story like I do." Then she proceeded to say I am like no one she has ever provided therapy to in her 30+ years in the business. Obviously I impact alot of lives on a daily basis with the many hats I wear, but to hear and know that I am so very unique to this professional . . .another play on a P word . . .was so uplifting and important to me. Honey let me tell you . . .she has seen me cry, snot, scream, laugh all in one damn hour session! Not to mention when I tell it . .I tell it ALL!! My shit . .his shit . .they shit . .everybody shit! You know why? Because that's owning your truth and brings that PEACE that surpasses all understanding that I have come to love and adore.
I have nothing to hide anymore and I'm not running FROM anything. I'm running TO all the POWER, PROGRESSION, PROSPERITY, PROMISE, PURPOSE and most of all PEACEFULNESS that has come to me in due season. YES I questioned why all these things happened? Then I remember that everything happens for a PURPOSE in our lives and my things happened to get me to EXACTLY where I am right now at the right time! I am living my BEST LIFE because I can honestly say that my truth is out there. I don't do things for accolades and I don't do things for allies. People will try to paint you to look like they want you to look; however on the flip side of the easel there is always the true picture of who you really are . . .and THAT is what will be known. Not by a few . . .or your "crew" but by many because of your character that shines through continually and at all times. A wise young man said to me just recently . . "I don't define your character by the actions of someone else." That is what's important when things are all said an done! We've all made mistakes and decisions that have impacted our lives in one way or another. The real test is when you can acknowledge and accept your role in those decisions and own your TRUTH . . .not a P word, but hey . . .it's important to know!
The Power Of P! What is your P word?
#findyourhappy
With Love,
LR Wilson, Founder
FB: Channeling Tequila
IG: @channelingtequila
Email: channelingtequila@gmail.com
Friday, May 4, 2018
OPEN LETTER
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you made me feel like I was useless, I would not have found how useful I really am.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you made me feel unworthy, I would not have found my worth that was hidden so deep inside, that I myself couldn't seem to find.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you made me feel stupid, I would not have found my intellect.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you showed me how much you didn't care, I would not have found that I only needed to care about myself.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you made me feel inadequate, I would not have found that I am enough.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you questioned my devotion, I would not have found that mine wasn't the one questionable.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you called me out my name, I would not have found my true identity.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you made me feel weak, I would not have found my strength.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you showed me that I wasn't beautiful, I would not have seen my beauty.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you made me question my existence, I would not have understood that I lived.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you said I wouldn't be happy, I would not have #foundMYhappy.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for the times you said Just Do You, I would not have known that's exactly what I was supposed to do.
This Open Letter I dedicate to you ~ If it were not for all those things, I would not have been able to say THANK YOU!
#findyourhappy
LR Wilson, Founder
FB: Channeling Tequila
IG: @channelingtequila
Email: channelingtequila@gmail.com
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