Plot Twist!

Life happens to everybody.  Some things planned, some things unplanned, some things just happen in the universe that should happen.  Either way, there will always be a Plot Twist in your life when things don't go as planned!  Of course, I "planned" "until death do us part".  Well clearly that didn't happen; however the word death has a whole different meaning for me.  Death of the relationship is what parted us.  It's literally like mourning at a funeral of a loved one.  That feeling is indeed the same.  Plot Twist!  

Then I lived again after death!  I thought for sure my life was over when my relationship was over.  It was NOT!!  I didn't know it wasn't because that's all I focused on when in reality it was just beginning! I began to do things I have never done before but always wanted to do.  The one thing I did was participate in a Spoken Word event.  It was AMAZING!! It's something that I have wanted to do FOREVER but never did because I was too busy making sure everyone else was happy and getting what they needed.  Plot Twist!  I SLAYED IT!  I recited my When I Love poem from my Sweet Dreams Collection.

When I love, I love hard because that's what I do
You can take it or leave it . .that's on you
Love me for who I am and not what you want me to be
Love me because it's what's right...the one thing that sets you free
Free from all the distractions 
Distractions that take away from us

When I love, I love hard because that's who I am
Continually giving all that I have to a man
Losing self in spite of the circumstance
Only to give the love I so desperately seek
The love that's suppose to be between you and me

When I love, I love hard no matter what the cost
Paying the price of stepping aside so you can be the boss
The king you say you are suppose to be
Why is it that you can't see the queen in me?

Blinded by your selfish desires and transparent ways
You can't see pass the facade to the truth
Not because you're seeking it, but because you're scared to lose sight of you

When I love, I love hard because that's what I do
So if you want what I have to give
You should love me just as hard as I love you

Sweet Dreams Collection

 YEA I must say "I DID THAT"!  I was so proud of myself.  My daughter was there to cheer me on as well as a few other friends.  It was a surreal moment because it was happening.  Plot Twist!

Then this blog came into existence!!  THIS BLOG THOUGH!!  It has been a healing mechanism for me and I hope that it has done/continue to do/will do the same for those reading it each week.

I have always enjoyed inspiring others to be their very best so my next LIVING moment was when I began planning what God had already planned for me in the spiritual realm!  YES my empowerment event Channeling Tequila #findyourhappy MIND ~ BODY ~ SOUL event that will be happening on June 24th.  I can't even began to tell you how excited I am for this to happen.  I have come to the conclusion that those who are supposed to be there . .will be!  Those who are not  . .are not purposed to be there.  Everything happens for a divine reason and it will happen just as ordered!

What's your Plot Twist moment in your life?  How will you embrace the change and keep things moving forward into your destiny?  Remember that YOU ARE WORTH every Plot Twist moment and only YOU can write the story!

#findyourhappy

With Love,

LR Wilson, Founder

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DREAM CATCHER!

The meaning of Dream Catcher as published in Dictionary.com "a small hoop containing a horsehair mesh, or a similar construction of string or yarn, decorated with feathers and beads, believed to give its owner good dreams. Dreamcatchers were originally made by American Indians." If you've never had the opportunity to see a Dream Catcher, you really should because they are amazingly beautiful.

Many of us grew up with dreams of this or that happening in our lives.  I remember dreaming that I would have a white picket fence, a nuclear family, be a house wife and LOVE every minute of it!  YEA . .PUMP THE BRAKES . . .that is/did not happen.  Instead what I got was . .in the first marital arrangement . .a kid . . .annnnndddd . .yep that's it!  That whole picket fence, nuclear family and being a house wife did not work out for me in that situation.  Now here I am a DREAM CATCHER . .waiting for something to be thrown my way.  I couldn't understand what went wrong . .at that time of course.  As I look back now I see EVERYTHING that went wrong.  First and foremost I got married WAYYYYY TOO YOUNG, at 16 that happened.  Secondly, I was under the impression that once you get married it's like a for real forever thing.  Boy was I awakened!!  Lastly, I understood without a doubt that mama's baby is just that mama's baby.  I was solely responsible for her well being and anything else that transpired in her life.  I had to grow up REAL FAST!

Fast forwarding into another relationship, three more kids, finally a home and a chain link fence happened.  Things were going well . . .until they weren't.  My fault, his fault, our fault . .and whomever else felt the need to intertwine their drama happened.  Yea so we will just keep moving this train along the track right into a derailing moment.  DREAM CATCHER is a bit left at the moment; however I was able to get in a few more dreams that I never thought I would want to do.  I went to school, acquired several higher educational degrees and great jobs that I love. I dreamed of inspiring others and doing things to assist them in knowing that they are WORTH IT!  No matter what they have been told, grew up feeling, been through . . it's all irrelevant when it comes to displaying your DREAM CATCHER!

My ultimate DREAM CATCHER moment was when I was able to put together the Channeling Tequila #findyourhappy Event which will be held on June 24, 2018!!  I cried when everything was coming together because I was told that I wouldn't be anything.  I couldn't do this or that without someone else there.  Well I did and I will!  It was a surreal moment for me which is why I am so very passionate about people coming out.  I am not making much of anything off of the event because that's not what it's about for me.  It's about knowing, finding and igniting your WORTH and HAPPINESS.  I know that all things will come full circle and the blessings will flow through the mesh of my DREAM CATCHER!

What will flow through your DREAM CATCHER?  Are you coming out to #findyourhappy on June 24, 2018?  I can't wait to see you there!

REGISTRATION NOW OPEN! When registering you will choose your lunch preference and will be emailed your confirmation. Click the link below.

https://lrwilson.thundertix.com/events/126237

#findyourhappy

With Love,

LR Wilson, Founder
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MIRROR MIRROR

MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . . who is the flyest of them all??  Well clearly it wasn't me as I understood it to be.  I have been secure in every part of my life, including being overweight . .or big boned as we say in the South . . .until it came to my personal relationship.  I had NO CLUE how insecure I was in dealing with my own happiness as an individual in the relationship.  I think I'm pretty good at most things . .well minus mechanical stuff and things that require me to entertain manual labor! So everything else . .LOL!

Growing up I was the light-skinned, long hair, shapely girl so I received alot of attention.  Some warranted and wanted, but most unwanted because some people just work my nerves.  Sorry . .I digressed so early on in this blog post.  Anyway . .I never knew that I was "different" from my sisters until I got older.  It never dawned on my personally that we came in all different shades.  It wasn't until society pointed it out to me.  We were never taught "color" growing up so yea I had no clue.  MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all??

I'll never forget my grandmother Rosie trained me to brush my hair 100 times every night before bed.  I mean it was all fun and games when I was younger as I sat or stood in front of the mirror brushing and brushing.  Then as I got older it became a hassle.  I had NO TIME to be brushing my hair.  I needed to get out and about.  I had friends and boys waiting for me.  YES BOYS!  It was about that time that I was told that I was different from my sisters.  They came flocking and I was right there to hang onto their every word of how beautiful and fine I was.  Little did I know this was all a ploy to get me to 1) sex and 2) that first kid as a teenager.  MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all?

YEP .. I was astonished by how many boys wanted to "talk" to me.  Now the conversations they were having did not fit my thought process.  I grew up real fast because I wanted to fit in and stay in their "sight".  I compromised my purity, my emotions and my body for these boys.  These boys that showed me such much attention.  I was young and dumb for sure!!  You would think as I got older I would have learned my lesson and kept it moving.  UH NO. . .attention I craved and it didn't matter that it was negative attention wrapped in a wonderfully glitter box with a bow!  It came with sacrifices that I was not yet ready for. . .ME!  MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all?

As I fast forward through middle school and onto high school I was pregnant with my first child at 15 years old and gave birth at 16.  Throw in a marriage and we have a full blown instant family.  It's like Easy Mac . .. just add water and put it in the microwave on 3.5 minutes . . .BAM IT'S READY!!!  Yea .. but I wasn't ready, he wasn't ready and the world damn sho wasn't ready for what was instantly created.  Well . . I got to keep the kid and let the other party go after moving across what seemed like the other side of the world, it was California from Mississippi, some ups, downs, inside and outside drama.  One of the best decisions I made in my life .. I must say.  If we're counting by this point.  MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all?

After all that chaos in my life I bounced back to MS stayed for a spell as they say . .so about a year if that long . .then I packed up my kid and moved to MN.  My cousin also had a daughter at the time and our aunt lived here in MN so we decided to do the same.  I was 17 at this point.  I got my full $96 in welfare and my $300 in food stamps, bought a Greyhound bus ticket for myself.  Had that other party buy one for my little girl, 2 years old at the time and we got on the Greyhound bus.  I had one suitcase with ALL of our stuff in it and she had on a Barney backpack with snacks and toys in it.  Her worldly possessions!!  MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . . who is the flyest of them all?

YEP ME FINALLY!  I did that!!  Now some 26 years later look at me!!  I'm a Public Safety Guru, a travel business owner, a blogger, published poet and a professor.  Those aren't even the REAL important roles!!  I'm first and foremost A MOM!!  YEA we know I've been through some shit, some by my own fault . .some not . .but at the end of the day . .it all came to pass.  There's ALOT more to come so you'll just need to keep coming back for more . .and telling other people to read this blog . . it's pretty damn fantastic I must admit.  With all this said . .just know that YOU CAN DO IT!  No matter what life throws your way YOU have the ability to make things work.  The instant ingredients include, time, patience and determination.  The MOST IMPORTANT ingredient of all is FAITH!  FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD.  What is it that you want to happen in your life by standing in front of and chanting MIRROR MIRROR on the wall . .who is the flyest of them all?  Whatever it may be .. it's time to #findyourhappy!

I can't wait to see you all at the Channeling Tequila #findyourhappy Event!!  This will be one of my best babies to date that has birthed!!

Respectfully
LR WILSON, Founder
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Scarlet Letter

Unless you have been living under a rock on a non-existent planet, you should have heard about the Scarlet Letter. I'll wait because I know some of you may need a little more time to think back . . . . .
Yea so those of you who have never heard of the Scarlet Letter . . .here we go!  The Scarlet Letter is a book written by Nathaniel Hawthorne and the gist of it is that a woman became pregnant . .not by her husband . .hence committing adultery and had the letter A on her chest for all to see.  Now if you need more detail than that you will have to get the book.  I must say it is quite interesting . . .degrading and shaming . . .but interesting to say the least.

Many people for centuries and centuries have committed adultery in some form or another.  Now before I can talk about anybody else, I must indeed share my truth.  I mean it is mine to share and the only way I was able to get to this point in my SERENITY is to acknowledge and accept the fact that I committed adultery.  I, yes I wore the Scarlet Letter A!  I'm not, by any means, proud of what I made the conscious decision to do; however I am fully responsible for my actions and my role in the act. I've always been an open book but this was NOT something I shared with others.  Even my closest friends were not aware.  I mean . .it was a secret like most affairs. 

When I tell you that I was castrated when I volunteered this information to my spouse at the time . .that's exactly what it was . .castration!! So I understand how this lady felt.  The problem that I have with wearing the Scarlet Letter is I was made to feel like I was the only one on the planet to have ever done this!  To be quite honest, without telling other people's truth, I was not the only one regardless of what I was made to feel, believe and ultimately adopt as my identity.  I found myself compromising my sanity, physical health, judgment and anything else that was stripped away from me in order to try and scrape that letter off of me.  The reality was yes I did it . .no I couldn't change it . . yes I wish it wouldn't have happened . . but yes it did.

The difference between me and other people's truth is that I acknowledge it actually happened.  I don't pretend like it never did and I have no problem with letting people know that I am not perfect.  I don't rally people to be on my side by telling some truth but not all my truths.  It took me a VERY LONG time to get to this point in my life.  YES . .it's shameful; however at the same time in order to be honest with anybody, we must first be honest with ourselves.  This is how I am now able to #findmyhappy!
I was made out to be and called everything under the sun . .and I'm not talking about the radiance it showers onto nature to grow either! I began to believe that and like I said adopt that as my identity.

Of course I wasn't anything that I was made out to be, but it was real to me at the time.  It was real to me as I questioned my own morals, values and life decisions.  I even questioned my ability to parent my children because I was led to believe that I wasn't a good parent.  Knowing I would die and live again if that's what needed to happen for my children.  Again . . .I wore the Scarlet Letter . . .alone.  It didn't matter the other people's truth were the same as mine.  They weren't on display anymore to the outside world.  The reason the outside world didn't know about their truths is because it wasn't discussed.  The Scarlet Letter faded as time passed; therefore it didn't really exist. . .in that moment.

Many wear the Scarlet Letter and although I was not proud to have it 1) on me 2) admit it and 3) adopt it as my identity at the time; it helped me to grow more than I probably would have ever.  I'm sure I could have gone about this growth process some other way . .but that didn't come to pass . . the Scarlet Letter did!  After this detrimental time in my life I was able to grow in the areas of faith, finances, discipline and most importantly identifying who I really am.  I was reminded that I am more than a Scarlet Letter.  I possess so many attributes and they were all locked down/buried within because I was too busy living for others and not for myself.  My identity was compromised because I had no individuality in my relationship.  Now listen . .I am NOT advising anyone to go out and pick up their own Scarlet Letter so don't go around saying you were given permission from Channeling Tequila to do what you already wanted to do . . .sorry I digressed! 

Bottom line is the only way you are going to #findyourhappy is to know that if your truth is wearing the Scarlet Letter . .YOU are MORE than that and WORTH ALOT MORE! Like Bey says "true love never has to hide" "anything real can not be threatened" (All Night - Lemonade Album).  One of my good friends says "if you can't do it in front of me . .then it's wrong" . .I'm paraphrasing but y'all get the meaning.  I'm not really sure who this message is for . . .hell it might even be just for my own continued therapy . . .but it's out there now.  Just know that I wasn't alone and neither is anyone else in that situation.  Know . .acknowledge . . .accept your truth so you can be free from the demons that lie within and continue to remind you of what you're not.  We must always remember that the enemy will remind us of what we're not in order to keep control in/over our lives.  Scarlet Letter!

#findyourhappy

With Love

LR Wilson, Founder

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