After some much needed R&R (reflection
revelation) time we are back!!! During this time, I've had the opportunity to look at my past behaviors and embrace the true meaning of reflection and revelation. I reflected upon how my actions allowed me to be where I am today. It was also revealed to me that this "place" I'm in is somewhere I never want to be again in life.
This "place" is not being in a relationship. My freedom is wonderful! I love not arguing...not being responsible or pressured to make someone else happy and not having to answer to anyone. I love coming and going as I please without explanation. It's very freeing I must say!
Now here's the hiccup! I also love being part of a union. Without all that extra bullshit. Yessss I understand no relationship is perfect and I get that. Hell if no one does...I do! I've lived a very peaceful yet lonely life these past few years. Then I begin to ask the question...am I willing to give up all of what I have attained to be in a relationship? I've done alot of work to get to this place emotionally and mentally in order to actually be alone.
NEWS FLASH!!! Now being alone and being lonely are two different things! You can be in a full blown relationship and still be lonely. Being alone is the physical sense of being. Being lonely is the actual feeling that is felt. There were times that I felt lonely in my previous relationship. To be quite honest I need attention and sometimes alot of it because I can most definitely be extra! Once I have your attention...your full attention...then I can go back to the normality of things. It might even sound selfish to want this from someone especially with all they have on their plates. At the end of the day if I'm not getting what I need, that side of your plate will be empty.
I'm a very vocal person. So if I tell you what I need or want...it's not a pretest...your taking the exam. I can be snappy and defensive when I'm feeling like I don't have your attention. Now when you come in with the "fake" attention...I can't! Don't give me the attention I've been asking for once I no longer want or need your attention. You can't just go back and make that happen because it's not real.
Everything takes work if it's going to be good. None of us are perfect and at the end of the day communication....healthy communication is the key to a good healthy relationship.
With that said....I'll wrap this comeback with #sheready!
#findyourhappy
With Love,
LR Wilson, Founder
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